WaW
Banyak gile ujian... The hardest was last night. Trust and Faith 101. Being so far away, not being able to communicate directly makes the test like 100 times harder. Like sitting in an examination hall without studying anything. You know that you will never answer well, but you still sit the test anyway. And then it turns out that you are not able to answer any of the questions. What do you do? Kalau saye, saye nanges.
I've always thought I'm stronger than people know. But it always turn out that I'm not as strong as people know. I'm very good at keeping things to myself. And when I can't bear it all, I'll burst like a balloon. Most of the times, the loud banging sound hurt the ears of those who kept me safe from sharp things. And I'm sorry.
I'm praying every single day that my heart keeps increasing in thickness. Like a safely atrophied heart of an athlete after suffering hard trainings for such a long long time. I'm praying that I am able to trust as I did before. I'm praying that each day is a better day than the last. I'm praying that I'll be able forgive and forget easily. I pray that others forgive me. I pray that all is well for me.
Trust is my weakness. I don't trust people. Gain it.
I'd rather be hurt by the truth than poisoned by lies.



