THE 99 THINGS TO DO BEFORE YOU GET OLD as my 100th post.

Got this from Datin Seri Tiara Jacquelina's Blog. Kind of interesting. (I dun see visiting Mekah or kawen in the list.)
So the highlighted ones are the ones i've done.

My Score is 34.5

1. Started your own blog -- duhh
2. Slept under the stars -- masa qiamullail SMKSJ
3. Played in a band -- nyanyi boleh?
4. Visited Hawaii and danced on a lava cliff with the roar of the Pacific below.
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain -- half of Gunung Ledang. so highlight half je
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo -- not in an album boleh?
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch -- photoshop. boleh?
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning -- oh taknak ingat
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty -- x pnah bwat. but perlu ke? bek nek KLCC
18. Grown your own vegetables -- taman herba Sekolah Rendah Ismail 1
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train -- KL-Bukit Mertajam
21. Had a pillow fight -- hobi matrikulasi
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill to avoid taking the kids to school
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon -- Larian Sukan SEA
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse in a bucket of water -- Yeap!! Dengan my brothers
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset -- Alexandria. A memoir
31. Hit a home run in softball and rounders
32. Been on a cruise -- Kuala Perlis - Langkawi. Boleh?
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors -- SIngapore. done. Sumatera, not yet.
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language -- I learned F language by myself. Arabic too.
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke -- MANY MANY MANY MANY TIMES
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant -- hahaha. :?
44. Visited Africa -- African Continent. Boleh?
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight -- Langkawi
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling -- Tioman!!
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud -- Damn you rachel soon and phang li jun.
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason -- tak ingat biler. but i gave the flowers to another girl
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy -- lots of em
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar -- wats so nice bout it?
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square -- KL boleh?
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London -- With Aisyah @ buckingham
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper -- 1) Masa PMR 2) @ japanese newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year's Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating -- Raya haji?
88. Had chickenpox -- I got proof!
89. Saved someone’s life -- yeah, but got myself hated.
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous outside of Malaysia?
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one -- Tokmak n Mak Roha. Alfatihah
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone -- 6 in total. but now only have 2
99. Been stung by a bee -- How does this make ur life more meaningful?

Ujian..

Sungguh very the banyak UJIAN in this past few weeks. Hope I can conquer them all wisely, and calmly... Thanks so much to those who support me all these while. Mere words can never describe my gratitude.

kantoi keras kan study konon skrin bukak facebook XP

Post Pagi Buta

NOPE. Takde kena mengena with postman or postbox or any sorts of letters and parcels. Its my 98th post on this blog... cant believe it... after 2 years of creation, i havent even reached 100 posts. It shows i'm very the study type lazy lah...

My main purpose of creating this blog was to forget someone. Now, I need to live it through as now, I need to forget some people. So yeah, I might post more frequently after this, but that's no promise alright? (ok nape aku rasa mcm syok sendiri? padahal sape je baca blog aku...)

What I want to say here is this - Life is full of junctions and crossroads. It is impossible to pick the right road to your destination all the time. Sometimes, we chose a wrong road twice before realizing that we've walked that road many many many times before. That is just life. People, passersby, those who follow you quietly can be harsh on you as the wrong roads might be the reason for partings with them later, or the wrong roads would just bring you to troubles and catastrophe.

I have ventured many roads myself. And I have dared to walk on roads nobody thought possible. I have hurt myself along the way, and unfortunately hurt those that i care too. Nonetheless, my feet kept walking along the road as there wasn't any U-turn to turn back.

The road i've taken found a cliff at the end. I fell deep and hurt myself and those I brought along with me. They really did blame me for everything, and I wasn't going to blame anyone else. It was my choice, and they were just following my lead. I led them to disaster, and I shall pay the price in full, though I know I may never pay enough.

The fall changed everything, but it won't change the fact that I did share laughs, smiles, happiness with them along the way to the cliff.

We shall get up from the fall, mend our broken legs, tend to our wounds. Then the journey of life shall continue. I see that we are taking different paths from now on. I pray that our paths shall cross again next time, and we shall take roads which would lead to eternal happiness, insyaAllah.

Kenapa ya?

"Daripada ko tulis poem-poem tu, cuba lah tulis benda-benda Islamic sikit. Bleh dapat pahala lebih..."

Terima kasih di atas teguran dan nasihat daripada saudara-saudara ya... That was the second time I heard such remarks. Again, thank you...

Hereby I would like to say that deep in my heart, I would LOVE to spread Islamic teachings. REALITY CHECK, my knowledge on it is very i mean VERY basic. I believe that i need to perfect myself FIRST before trying to IMPROVE others. It is a very sincere confession from my heart, I still need to improve myself, FIRST.

Let me me give you some very real details... In Egypt, since year 2006, students who come here to study medicine are not exclusively from prestigious religious schools like it used to. The current students have varied backgrounds. Some are from families that don't even give the basics of Islamism, and many are from average families who were sent to average schools, with average surroundings, and average lifestyles.

Little that I have learnt in my short 20 years, but the one that I would keep forever is words are very powerful medium to change people. It may change for the better, or worse. So please, use words wisely... spend some time reading this

Thanks for reading.

May Allah shower His blessings on us. =)

Jangan Ada Benci

I don't expect you to understand this poem because nothing is wrong with you.

The line between right and wrong fades in the dark,
Its easy for you to blame as you're not in the game,
I've been blind enough to see i've ran out of luck,
My very soul is cursed; you and me are not the same


Please don't judge me because you've no right,
You think you know me but really you don't,
I've hidden truth and sacrificed my own sight,
My tongue could've lied but my heart won't


Hate me all you can because you choose to,
To forget your promises and revenge were your choice,
I won't say a thing because I don't choose to,
I've never lied to you, and I shall rejoice


Seeing my good past kills me slowly,
The laughter and friendship are now misery,
What i wouldn't do to turn back the time,
To return to the moments when everything was at its prime


Do I really deserve this isolation?
I feel like a miserable child lost in his sleep,
Can't wake up to the world and face the depression,
Can't stay in the nightmare and just weep


Somehow I think you're not this heartless,
But you turn things down because this is just wrong,
Forgive me if I'm wrong and say that you're mindless,
I forgive you if I'm right all I can say is be strong


I know I've hurt you most,
But do know I was hurt as well,
A broken heart shall be mended,
A broken life like mine ends in hell


...just pray all is well.

Mind Your English Please!

Ehm Ehm,

I'm writing this not with the slightest intention of saying my command in English is good. There are things which must be said because I don't plan to be ignorant, and I wish to share knowledge with everyone.

This post might hurt some individuals or groups, and it might inflict hatred upon myself. But I don't give a damn. The truth needs to go out.

I have been deeply hurt and embarrassed by my own countrymen in a foreign country. Not once or twice. But uncountably many times. People, nobody's perfect, especially the Malaysians. Keep this thought in mind all the time. We should respect the differences among human races.

"Hai manusia! Sesungguhnya Kami menciptakan kamu berbangsa-bangsa dan bersuku-suku supaya kamu saling mengenal. Sesungguhnya orang yang paling mulia diantara kamu di sisi Allah adalah orang yang paling bertakwa di antara kamu. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Mengenal.” (QS. Al-Hujurat {49}: 13).

Yes, I agree, some remarks made by the locals which sounded like "your English is very bad" or "your English sounds like Hindi" were hurtful to all of us. BUT KEEP IN MIND, those who say that meant no harm or offense. They said that in mere expressions of their failure to understand our verbal communications.

The part which I didn't get very much was the anger and hatred we showed against them. Excuse me, I myself agreed with the locals most of the times. Our English did sound like rubbish. And some were freakingly rude enough to reply "well your English sounds like French". Did you realise you were talking to the person who was TRYING HARD to convey knowledge as sincerely as possible to you? Did you even realise that your phrase was rude?? (*lets put it this way, its like saying "kau cakap omputeh mcm keling" if we look at the phrase from the English culture POV, and fit it into the Malay context.*) KUANG AJAU BTOL!

Yes, I agree, you were trying to be defensive. But don't do it overly alright. They are our lecturers. They deserve the respect which should be theirs. There are ways to express our disagrees in much more graceful ways. And to learn those ways, in the name of peace, is much more important than trying to find fault in another's imperfect command of languages.

We've been told, and told to be prepared to deal with their unrefined culture. So why did we snap when we actually faced it? Soft skills people. Soft skills. We are doctors-to-be aren't we?

Thank you,

And sorry.

SHams El-Din