Tears tears go away, never come again and please don't stay

WaW

Banyak gile ujian... The hardest was last night. Trust and Faith 101. Being so far away, not being able to communicate directly makes the test like 100 times harder. Like sitting in an examination hall without studying anything. You know that you will never answer well, but you still sit the test anyway. And then it turns out that you are not able to answer any of the questions. What do you do? Kalau saye, saye nanges.

I've always thought I'm stronger than people know. But it always turn out that I'm not as strong as people know. I'm very good at keeping things to myself. And when I can't bear it all, I'll burst like a balloon. Most of the times, the loud banging sound hurt the ears of those who kept me safe from sharp things. And I'm sorry.

I'm praying every single day that my heart keeps increasing in thickness. Like a safely atrophied heart of an athlete after suffering hard trainings for such a long long time. I'm praying that I am able to trust as I did before. I'm praying that each day is a better day than the last. I'm praying that I'll be able forgive and forget easily. I pray that others forgive me. I pray that all is well for me.

Trust is my weakness. I don't trust people. Gain it.

I'd rather be hurt by the truth than poisoned by lies.

Dunia Memang Kejam

This picture is photoshoped. Obviously. I've seen both pics separately before. But it is very very sinister when its combined like this.

JAHAT LA KORANG!!!

Pelayar Dunia

Ku butuh ilham,
Untuk menitip bingkisan rasa,
Buat yang sudi pinjamkan masa,
Dalam meredah lautan dunia,
Terumbang-ambing ke dermaga fana,
Yang cekal mengemudi walau terseksa,
Hampir karam engkau derita,
Semangat digagahkan jua,
Melawan ombak angin dan gelora

Tiada yang sekuatmu,
Wahai pengemudi setia,
Tiba saat daunmu patah,
Pangkal di tangan, hanyut hilirnya,
Perlu kau tinggalkan perahu selesa,
Harus di renang kejarkan semula,
Kini pendayungmu pendek hina,
Dihentam ombak lenguh dirasa,
Kayuhlah sayang, masih jauh tempatnya

Mungkin nasibmu malang,
Mendung mendatang dengan sempurna,
Membawa petanda malapetaka,
Lalu tersimbah airmatanya,
Sabarmu lagi dicuba-cuba,
Bajumu luntur seluarmu basah,
Angin mencengkam kuku durjana,
Bekalmu kini sabar dan doa,
Bilakah mungkin ujianmu reda

Oh cabaran,
Demi sampai ke pelabuhan sana,
Tempat nya indah biasa-biasa,
Bukanlah mimpi ataupun syurga,
Syukurlah kau pijak di bumi sempurna,
Hujan tak bawa ajal bersama,
Ombak hiasan bukan bahaya,
Semoga ingat di dalam dada,
Segala seksa pengajaran dunia

Oi Study lah bongok!!!

Ye. Saye perlu study.

(harapan tinggi kan?)

Happy 16th Birthday Hasleza bt Zulkafli

Well the title says it all...

-Wanted to post it 2 days ago right on her birthday, but the datelines for other postings were queuing as well. Had post it 2 days later.

-Wanted to call her on her birthday, but no SmartVOIP credit in my account.

- Wanted to tell her in her YM, but she wasn't online when I was online.

- Wanted to SKYPE with her, but I forgot that i DO have SKYPE.

- Wanted to SMS, damn i didn't like it.

- Wanted to give many reasons to tell her that this year I can't afford to send her flowers all the way from Egypt

*brape byk punya alasan daa.. dasar Melayu.*

Anyway, the only gift I could give to a very special bestfriendforever/sister/adik/kakak (well, our roles kinda tukar2 depending on situations kan Jaja =P), is this post which I hope would be eternally here somwhere on this thing called world wide web.

Jaja, I miss your company, (ye Maliq, Azzy, Nina, Batch, Aliah, Annis, Pija, Shera dan lain-lain. Jangan marah kalau tak disebut. Ni post untuk Jaja lah!), And do know that you are one of the many colours that shine my life even at the darkest of times. Thanks for always being there. Sorry for not being there.

Kita kawan sampai bila-bila ek!!

Happy Birthday JAJA

*J.A.J.A nama yang tak dapat kulupakan,
sering bermain di fikiran,
lalalala...
(tak ingat lagu yang boy tulis tuh. cuma tau banyak mengeja)*

p/s : kim salam tini

Post From Mansoura

A very unplanned trip (bukan nak tiru sesiapa harap maklum). An hour before class I chatted with my ex-classmate in KMKu, who is currently studying in Mansoura University, Egypt. Mansoura is about an hour car ride from Zagazig. It is the 3rd largest city in Egypt (Zagazig is the 4th), and Mansoura University is ranked 2nd best to Cairo University (Zagazig is 6th). Never been to Mansoura for a holiday before. Its my 1st time and yeah, here is the story. Enjoys

area called Sikah (not siqah ya... not at all hahaha)

On the nile... 1st time naek boat 2 tingkat. teruja. sangat.

Suka gambo nih. Thanks Rahim!

Emosi. titik.

Ni lah boat nyerrr

Sebok sampah depan tuh. (ok aku rasa kalo aku tak ckp korg tak perasan kan?)

punggung ku kecikk. gmbar ni wat nmpak besaw

Capucinno + Brownies = Instant taik

Muka toya. sangat murah aku rasa pose ni

El-Barun Cakes and Coffee. *babi nye manager tak bg ambik gmbar lagi pas gmbr ni*

Pintu Mansoura University Hospital ni lawa sgt. I bet takde org bleh lalu. hiasan saje

Mansoura University Hospital

Mansoura University Olympic Village. The PERUBATAN Sports Day was be held here

My first dinner @ Mansoura was behind this door. Siyes sejibik mcm La Tansa Zagazig

Muka kurang comel. shadap uolls

The only thing i brought to Mansoura (plus baju dan berus gigi dan towel dan passport)

"Psychology Lecture? Come with me.."

I was about to skip the very 1st psychology class when i bumped into our lecturer and he said as the above. Haihz. Kantoi keras. But nevermind, i tailed him and entered the super huge lecture hall. His introduction was boring... But then, he gave some very intelligent quotes

Dr. Psy - Can someone define perception...?

*cricket sound. oh well, a class of Malaysians. Wat u expect?*

Dr. Psy - Well, perception is what or how your brain interpret
things that you see. You receive or see by your eye,
but you process with your brain.

Dr. Syam (dalam hati) - So, what we perceive actually influenced by
what we see... hurm..?

Dr. Psy - What are the differences between mood,
emotions and effects?

Dr. Syam (dalam hati) - Emotion is the general term that cover
things like mood and the effects are seen

Dr. Psy - Emotions are the general term (AHAH!)
mood is subjective, and effect is objective

Dr. Syam (dalam hati) - Ok, all shrinks are goners. Ok, jap. faham.
Its true that we can never accurately define
our mood. But the effects are basically
generalized. Bila kita sedih, tapi kita buat-buat
happy, then people would definitely
we are heartless. Yeap. That's the effect.

Dr. Psy - Do you want me to enter class next time

Sebulat Suara - NO!!!

Dr. Psy - Good!